I thought this would be a quiet time. I don't have another appointment related to this BRCA1+ nonsense until June 22. I was looking forward to being able to just "be" for a while.
But I've been having nightmares.
I haven't had a nightmare in a really long time. But as of last week, they're back. All very specifically related to this whole process, as the nightmares feature the surgery for the mastectomy and reconstruction. Last night's nightmare literally made me hyperventilate and sob. I woke up crying hard and having trouble breathing.
Even when you think it's not on your mind, it is. And it's horrible.
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